As soon as I open the front door the autumn will come in so the floors will no longer be sparkling and clean. As soon as child number one comes home, the wash basket will have a dirty uniform thrown into it, once the washing line has been emptied the ironing basket will be full, once the dinner has been cooked the pots will need to be done, once Rob has eaten a rock bun, there will be crumbs in places where crumbs shouldn't be!!! But for this short moment in time I am basking in the glory of being a domestic goddess!
I also managed to do a quick LO whilst Harry and Reuben were asleep. Now this is unheard of for me... I normally faff for hours and it takes an age for a LO to be completed. So today I decided to do a Jen, and get a LO done in super quick time... must say I am quite liking the end result too. Now if only this speed scrapping could be done all the time!
HSMSI haven't done this since last week, and have missed the daily prompts. Yesterday Kirsty started the new theme of emotions... easy right? well not so when you add to the equation that you can't take a photo of facial expressions! Yesterday's prompt was sad, quite appropriate really as this is how I have been feeling the past few days. I have decided to combine the prompt with today's 'excited'.
I am having a bit of a personal trauma at the moment regarding work and children. I am so lucky to have been blessed with my boys, both of which were the result of taking the drug clomid. I am also really lucky that I am a sahm so get to be with Harry all day, and take and fetch Oliver to and from school. I am at the stage now where I am thinking that I would like another child... just one more, but then I think that maybe I should just be grateful for what I have. With two children we can afford for me to stay at home until Harry goes to school full time, but if I had a third then I would have to go back to work. Part time Art teacher jobs just do not come up, so going back to work would mean full time, which I know would make me sad as I would be missing so much of the children.
So I have been prescribed clomid. And this little box of tablets has been sitting in the kitchen all weekend. There is one part of me saying take them... you know you want to. Then there is the other part of me saying that I shouldn't take them.
I am so sad, confused, excited, happy, scared and unsure... I really do not know what I am going to do!!!